moving forward

We went to home depot last night and picked up some boxes. 
moving boxes.

yowsa.
becks went to school and told all his teachers we are moving.
i wasn't ready for that.
i explained that it wasn't 100% yet but that we were getting the house ready.
then i cried on the way home.


nate was patching some walls and I asked him if we were crazy.
he said yes.
but we were a little crazy when we left his parents' house when i was pregnant and moved into our first apartment in el segundo.
and we were a little bit crazy when nate started school again while working full time and we moved into our second apartment in el segundo  and had baby number two.
and then we were even more crazy when we went looking for houses in san pedro.
people asked us why we would ever move our family here.
we love it.
friends. community. beauty.
and baby number 3 came.
and the kids are all growing.
and i think the moral of the story is that you have to be a little bit crazy if you want to move forward.
and we love us some adventures.
and some more babies.
we make really great babies.
have you seen them?

but i feel sad.
i feel scared.
i feel like this has been a great home base for us.
and we are not going far.
just a few miles.
40 min. in traffic.
and we are going to try city life for a few years.


and i guess we will move forward with this until we feel like we shouldn't.
which hasn't happened yet.
but it is still sad and scary.
just a bit.